I write to you from Bangkok. I will return to REDACTED on Sunday where I will again be out of email and internet contact. The events of the past weeks are shocking, barbaric, and unbelievable. Though my school was closed for a few days, we are now operating on a half-day schedule.
I am just now able to see the internet news here in Thailand. I am moved to tears to see the overwhelming support of the international community, especially since today, Saturday, is the Support the Monks’ Protest in Burma Day. I wish the people in Burma had access to the news to know how many millions around the world are gathering in solidarity.
I will most certainly relay this message of support upon my return. Information has been cut off to most of the country, and many Burmese use shortwave radios. Some have been arrested for listening to BBC and VOA.
Covering the items with blankets to avoid being seen, I was able to safely deliver 220 pounds of rice and 400 bottles of water in my truck to a local monastery. Two days later, the monks were taken during the night. We don”t know where they are.
I am aware that the news coverage of Burma has declined over the past days. This is primarily because the internet was shut down. BBC received 20,000 images in one day, they received but 12 the next, when the government shut down the internet for the entire country.
The violence has not stopped. So many are being taken away at night, beaten, and detained. I have eyewitness accounts from several Burmese saying that the violence is continuing in neighborhoods during the night. These incidents aren”t being photographed because only the soldiers are allowed on the streets during curfew hours.
Here are a few stories that aren”t making the news:
The father of one of our students at school posted negative images of the regime on his blog and escaped just before the authorities came to his house. He and his family are safe, back home in Korea.
Demonstrators identified in the international news such as CNN/BCC are being arrested at night, beaten, and taken away. One long-haired Burmese man seen on BCC is in hiding. He came in the middle of the night to my friend”s house, asking that he cut his hair to hide his identity.
The monasteries are empty. We don”t know for sure where the monks are.
One of my Burmese colleagues runs a health clinic with her husband. Many of the wounded demonstrators came to the clinic. The army demanded that they board it up within 10 minutes or they would be arrested. My colleague saw several corpses, and many arrests are still being made at night in the houses of her neighborhood.
The hardest thing to deal with right now is the lack of reliable information and the complete lockdown of internet, which has been down for over a week. Though all the major news items of the past weeks have happened within a mile or so of my house, the lack of information/news journalism is paralyzing. The paradox is that we continue with our daily life: we still go to school and to the fruit market, passing truckloads of armed soldiers. Life, strangely, goes on, which seems, somehow, so very surreal, as if we”re all dreaming.
Through it all, we have been deeply moved by the brave in heart, the demonstrators and monks who risked their lives for peace. The exuberance of the Burmese people in the streets those first few days of mass demonstrations was palpable; it was as if a weight had been lifted off of the country: everyone was happy, and smiling in the streets.
The lid of oppression had been temporarily lifted. It was so inspiring to see the demonstrations and to see the people standing up in unity after all these years. Most of the Burmese students who I teach have had relatives who were shot or imprisoned during the uprising of 1988, so recent events have been both exhilarating and traumatic for them.
At school we are trying to provide an environment where students can have a dialogue about the political situation in this country. We are trying to find a balance between acknowledging what’s happening in the streets of our city and continuing to teach course content. I am so glad that school remains open. Staying at home is mind-numbing; students and teachers want a sense of normalcy.
One of my colleagues was a teacher at the University of Rangoon during the 1988 uprising. She saw all her students taken away. I”m so glad that most of my students are still with me. I feel my role here is to teach future leaders: students from 28 different nations, including children of UN workers and local Burmese students.
I continue to believe that being an educator carries such a grave responsibility, especially during these times. Though I long for home, I want to be a witness for what is happening. Just being here matters. In places such as Cambodia, there were so few witnesses to tell the world. If we were to evacuate, my Burmese colleagues and friends would feel deserted.
I strive to be like the monks in the streets by being as peaceful as I possibly can. As truckloads of soldiers roam the streets, I look at their faces. Some of them are terrified, having been forced to join the armed forces. They are asked to “kill or be killed.”
We are trying to create a space to process trauma and to do peace-building work. In dealing with our personal trauma, perhaps we can provide opportunities growth in dealing with trauma in the greater society.
We are all assessing the risk factors and are being pushed outside of our comfort zones in these times. We are taking calculated risks. We are not discouraged by the suppression of the demonstrations; there is a deep, deep dissatisfaction among the people that still remains.
Over the past two decades hundreds of thousands have died in struggles to create independence and democracy, and it is not over. We want our school to remain open; we don”t want to abandon our students nor this country.
Many of you have called or emailed asking how you can help.
One way to help is keeping informed and spreading the word about what is happening in this country. The internet offers much better commentary than the television media, with many support groups forming overnight to organize campaigns and peace vigils.
Please forgive the somber note of this email. I”m usually much more upbeat and optimistic. But, I”m finding it difficult to be cheery these days, and I walk around with a deep, deep sadness for the nation of Burma and the people who I love so dearly.
Thanks for your prayers and support,
In Peace,
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(Recommended reading: The Voice of Hope by Aung San Suu Kyi , which has given me much solace during these days.)