I’ve been writing and re-writing this post in my head for weeks. It”s time to let this beast loose on the world.
In the America we live in we give lip service to the human values of Justice and Forgiveness, but in our dark rooms we clutch orgasmic end-times fantasies of Revenge and shiver in our dreams of getting even.
Justice is when we get what we want and we grant forgiveness only when we either care nothing for the slight or perceive a benefit. But if neither is true we cling to that crime against us and plot again and again what will happens when they gets theirs.
Our legal system rejects such principles because it must. Individuals cannot be allowed to define Justice. Law must carefully fill the pans of Lady Justice’s scales (have you ever contemplated why Justice is personified as a woman and not a man?) and make the best bargain it can to hold chaos outside the walls.
And when Law renders its verdict, decrees what payment the guilty must make to restore balance and then collects that payment, then Law is done. And we must accept that it is done, that the debt has been paid to Society, or we must retreat to our dark rooms.
Which brings me to convicted felon Tim Russo.
Tim has written, as have others, out the details. I, and the Law, know that he takes responsibility for his his crime, made restitution for that crime as decreed by Law and resolved to never repeat his offense.
In Judaism that is what is required to be forgiven.
We Jews are approaching our own High Holidays — Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, the 10 days of Awe — when we do our best to take responsibility for our injustices, to make restitution to those damaged and to resolve to not repeat our offenses.
This post is part of my restitution to Tim Russo because I have not acted as I ought to have. I have not spoken up when others have disparaged him. I have waited far too long to write this post.
I’ve sent a note to Tim about this post and how I feel.
I’m also writing emails to Matt Naugle and Glenn Nichols.
I wish I could speak directly with the real cowards behind the campaign to make Tim Russo curl up and die but I can’t. They refuse to step out into the light.
So I ask Tim Russo to forgive me for not being the man I expect myself to be.